Tired, craby, and stressed!

I am ready for this week to be over! I am tired, craby, and stressed. Saturday is the garage sale and I have not did enough advertising. Tomorrow I am going to hang the signs up around town, bake the bars, and make road signs. I am worried I won't have enough money to actually enjoy my trip to Oklahoma. I have been to busy doing other things to actually get a good workout in this week. I just want to see my boyfriend! Is that really to much to ask, why do I have to miss him so fucking bad? My house is not getting anywhere near done, I am going to have to work on that this Sunday. I could go on and on why I am crabby, but I guess the only thing to help that is to go to bed. So now I am going to take my own advice and go to sleep.

30 days till I'm hugging my soldier!

Food is good! This last weekend I ate and ate until I couldn't eat anymore and then I ate again. I had William's cafe, Daisy's Garden, Rosalies, and Gramma's good ole' home cooking. I gained some weight back but it was well worth it. I will just have to work extra hard at getting it off this week.
I got to talk to my honey on Sunday. He seemed to be doing pretty good. He's gotten my packages and letters. I am sending him some baked goodies tonight. I got a letter from Fort Sill explaining the graduation and when we get to visit with the soldiers. On the 25th we get from 1:30-10pm to hang out with them I believe even off base. Maybe I will be able to utalize some of that time making up for lonely times I've had these past few months ;)
This week I got to work on getting ready for my garage sale I am having Saturday. I think that is going to take up all my free time. Between that, cleaning the house, and working out I am going to be beat by Saturday evening.
This past weekend I got to spend some time with my cousins' babies. It made me wish I could be a mommy. I would love to have a child, to be able to look in their eyes and see all the love in the world. Even thoguh I got to see a few of them I am dedicating this blog to: RaeAnna, Hannah, Jordan, Jada Beth, Tairah, Wyatt, Lacey, Gavin, Mason, and a special angel Hailey-Joh. I love all of you.

Sunny days and a green tree...what else do you need?

On Tuesday I went to a cooking show. I got lots of samples and completely trashed the diet...Don't worry I am back on track.
My parents are on a trip to the west coast, I can't wait till I head off on my trip. I am counting down the days till we leave.
The weather is beautiful and the tree in my backyard is getting green buds on it. I just love Spring.
I am going back home on Friday evening to visit my gramma and get some things for the garage sale. We are going to bake brownies for David and I am sure we will go out to eat a few times.
I am grateful to wake up every morning to live a day I have never seen before...Start each morning with a smile and end each day with a conversation with God.

Lucky enough to have people to love

I talked to David over the weekend. He is in much better spirits and thinks there may be around all this. If not we are still going to take our trip and maybe he can get a pass to see us just for a bit. It makes me feel so much better just knowing that he isn't as stressed and upset. I still can't believe how my feelings for him have grown since we've been apart. I now know to be thankful for everyone I am lucky enough to love.
The weather is beautiful! It is 90 degrees outside! I can't wait to get home and throw some shorts on.
I seen my gramma on Sunday. She is awesome and I love her. My mind is swarming with so amny thoughts, it's hard to even get this stuff down. So I am going to ponder my thoughts and count the minutes down till 5 pm...

Frustration!!!

Ok, I am really pissed off at the Army. They told David yesterday that due to his bad credit he couldn't get security clearance to do his job, they told him he had to make 3 consecutive payments out of his military checks on all his debt or he would be recycled and have to do 60 days of basic over again and be put in a different job that didn't require security clearance, like loading ammo. He was upset which made me upset. Now we don't know when he'll graduate. Maybe by some act of God this mess will be cleared up. Everyone was getting excited to go to Oklahoma and finally see David. Everyone in my house is pretty upset now.
I had my MRI of my head done yesterday. The dye leaves a weird taste in your mouth. In case I didn't mention it before...Dr. McKinnon called and told me he was still concerned about my CT revealing the right ventricle being large and wanted me to see a neurologist. I made an appointment with Dr. Richardson who wanted an MRI first. I will be seeing Dr. Richardson on Tuesday. I am sure she will say it's nothing but everyone wants me to have to checked out.
I fell off the diet wagon last night but that's ok, I am back on today. I weighed myself at 124.5 lbs., so I am pretty happy with those results.
I have a nasty cold, it started in my upper chest and has moved down. I am really worn out, when I get off work I am going to take a nap.
I just feel like nothing is going the way I would like it to right now.

Motley Crue...Wow!

What to first talk about? On Friday I went to the Motley Crue concert. It was awesome even though I didn't know many songs I still loved it. There were fireballs, acrobatics, and even a titty cam! I really wish David would have been there with me, I couldn't help but think about him throughout the concert. On Saturday I bought a grill and lawn furniture, I had a BBQ. It was really tasty! David also called Saturday evening, it was realy nice to hear his voice. He told me he finished basic and was doing some other training. He told me he can only come home for 10 days though, so that made me upset but I sucked it up for him. I drilled Jason (Susan's boyfriend) with sex questions, I think I brought up some good ones. Some answers suprised me. On Sunday I talked to David and did my usual stroll through the mall. I went to Gordmans and bought a cute tank top, flip-flops, undies, and exercise pants. Tonight I worked out and finally reserved the motel room in Lawton. We picked a cheap Motel 6. Everyone that's going is kinda low on money.
I am extremely tired now so I am going off to bed.
Nighty night!

I think I have a sock stuck in my teeth

Tonight is the Motley Crue concert. I wish David was here, it was his idea to go to the concert in the first place.
My scar is healing up pretty well, you can barely even see it.
I'm so hungry I could eat my foot so I better end this and get something to eat.
I will be back to fill in all the details of the concert.
Later

Let the bad luck over take like a pack of hungry wolves...

Well Last Thursday bad luck struck again. My car was towed after I parked it in Annie's apartment parking lot. That costed $115. The tow fucker is going to pay...just haven't come up with a plan yet.
My Easter weekend was ok. I went to the Nite Hawk and sang karaoke with Susan and Sarah for Susan's 21st. Easter Sunday I destroyed my diet. I ate too much and then found room for more. I got to talk to David, which just hearing his voice makes me miss him 100 times worse than I allready do. But, I would die if I didn't hear it...kinda like a drug.
Tuesday I decided to be a good person and donate plasma. I felt tired after that but still wanted to go to the orientation thing at the fitness center. I wasn't working out but continued to feel hotter and hotter. Finally I thought I was going tobe sick so I started to walk out when everything got blurry and black spots appeared. I leaned up against the wall and ??? I opened my eyes to see the fitness dude asking me if I was ok. My chin hurt so I placed my towel on it. I pulled the towel back and seen blood, I thought I had cut my chin. Then there appeared another fitness guy who looked at the cut and said I would need stitches. I felt sick again so turned to my side, the whole time the guy is saying you could have a neck injury. I was more orientated by then so I assessed myself and said "No, I can feel my toes and have no tingling or pain." Then out of no where there was the fire dept. and ambulance. They asked 101 questions, to see if I was orientated. I told them to call my sis and have them get Nessa from the car. Even after I gave them all that info they still thought I might be confused?! They took my bp while laying and it was 135/90 (it's never that high). sitting it was 110/65. I got in the ambulance so the paramedics could take a look. The cute paramedic student told me 4 stitiches (liar). They took my bp again while laying it was 116/65, sitting 100/60, and when I stood they lost it. I also felt sick then. So, they told me I couldn't ride with my sister I had to ride with them. At the ER they took a billion xrays and a CT. Then after being there5 hours they stitched up my chin...11 stitiches. The shots to numb the area hurt like a bitch (they told me mosquito bite...don't know where there mosquitos come from but I sure don't wanna meet them). After another billion xrays the doctor finally broke the news. A chin laceration, CHI (closed head injury), strained neck muscles, and fractured mandible due to a syncopal episode. Oh yeah, one of my ventricles in the brain is larger than the other, but he thinks that's normal for me???He said I didn't have to stay the night cause it was almost morning anyway (3am) and my bp has remained stable. He gave me Tylenol with codeine to help with pain. By then my head hurt so bad I thought it would fall off. The next day ENT (Ears, nose and throat) called to say they reviewed my films and don't think my jaw was fractured, but if pain persists to make another appt. That evening Dr. Mckinnon (my ER dr.) personally called to say he and the radiologist reviewed in depth my films and feel that my jaw at the time was jammed and my muscles were spasming causing the image to be blurred. He said that if my bite doesn't improve in a couple of days to see ENT anway. Well today is Friday and my bite isn't better but I think i am going to wait till my stitches come out on Tuesday and ask then.
Last night Annie and Jennifer moved into my place. Wow, they have a lot of shit. It's going to take all weekend to get their stuff arranged.
I just want to end this with a little advice. If you have ever fainted don't donate plasma. If you are going to donate eat a very hearty meal before and after. Or maybe just stick with donating blood.