Uncomfortable

Right now I am sitting here in this stupid town in this stupid state wishing I was back home. I miss the comfort of being home. I hate not being familiar with my surroundings, I think no matter how long I am here it will never be home and I will always feel awkward.
I hate knowing my family is all together and I am down here alone, I feel so alone down here when David isn't by my side. I understand we are down here because of the Army and he can't be continuously with me, but I also wish he would understand how I feel when he leaves. I'm not saying he should feel guilty for not being next to me just give me a little more attention when he is here. Sometimes when he is here he still seems distant, I think he is getting ready for when he is deployed. Maybe he thinks if he trys not to care as much it won't hurt as bad being away.
I am in my 2nd trimester now and still puke occasionally. Hopefully the icky part of this ends soon.
How is it, that someone can feel alone in a place full of people?

30 weeks left

I can finally tell the world... I am pregnant! Right now I am 10 weeks along. I have outgrown some jeans. I have a belly already, nothing too big though. The baby is due December 9th. I will be coming back to Grand Forks in early October. David leaves for Iraq the beginning of November and I don't want to be alone down here for the delivery so I am coming back early.
I am excited and happy. I think David is happy yet upset that he won't be here. I am going to send him lots of pics and record lots of the baby while he is away.
The one thing I have noticed is that my depression is coming back, I don't really know how to deal with it now. I guess I will just have to cope.
I have fallen in love with someone that I haven't even seen. I have prayed for someone I haven't even touched. I have talked to someone I haven't even heard. I am cherishing someone that has become a part of me.