Homesick

I am so very homesick. I would do anything to be lounging around my parent's house right now. It feels like I'll never get home.
Nessa got a new friend, he doesn't have a name but I think he is a pit. He is a cutie, but also a pain in the ass. He chews on everything that fits in his mouth, and stuff that doesn't.
When you lose good communication, the world becomes a lot smaller.

Happy Early Birthday, Mom!

David comes back tomorrow... FINALLY! It feels like it's been forever.
On Wednesday I went to the doctor cause I was still having spotting. He said he didn't see the polyp and figured I didn't have an infection. He took a look at the baby anyway and it was dong great. The baby was pawing at my stomach above it's head and kicked at the sonogram wand when the doctor tried to see it's legs. I didn't want to find out what it was till David was with so we don't know yet. Anyways, the doctor came back after running a test and said I still had the infection so he increased my dose of medicine and started me back on it.
My mom turns 43 tomorrow, so Happy Birthday, MOM!!! I can't believe how young she is for having 4 almost grown children.
Time to clean, got to work in a couple hours.
Live to play not to work..." I've never seen a hearse with a luggage rack..."

2,500... take a minute to mourn.

Alone and doing way to much thinking... That is my current situation.
David is JRTC doing traing right now, he will be home in a couple weeks. So, it's just Nessa and I to fend for ourselves.
I am now 16 weeks along and doing OK. I have an endometrial polyp, which I know nothing about. It causes occasional spotting but no other problems so far. I am still not gaining enough but have did good since my last appointment.
No, I haven't decided on any baby names yet. Still open to any ideas.
There have now been 2,500 soldier deaths in the Iraq war. I pray that David will not be part of the next twenty-five hundred. I don't think GOD would give us a baby just to take David away.
This is the best advice I can give anyone. Drink Drink Drink Water, till you feel like your toes ar floating and then drink some more.

Uncomfortable

Right now I am sitting here in this stupid town in this stupid state wishing I was back home. I miss the comfort of being home. I hate not being familiar with my surroundings, I think no matter how long I am here it will never be home and I will always feel awkward.
I hate knowing my family is all together and I am down here alone, I feel so alone down here when David isn't by my side. I understand we are down here because of the Army and he can't be continuously with me, but I also wish he would understand how I feel when he leaves. I'm not saying he should feel guilty for not being next to me just give me a little more attention when he is here. Sometimes when he is here he still seems distant, I think he is getting ready for when he is deployed. Maybe he thinks if he trys not to care as much it won't hurt as bad being away.
I am in my 2nd trimester now and still puke occasionally. Hopefully the icky part of this ends soon.
How is it, that someone can feel alone in a place full of people?

30 weeks left

I can finally tell the world... I am pregnant! Right now I am 10 weeks along. I have outgrown some jeans. I have a belly already, nothing too big though. The baby is due December 9th. I will be coming back to Grand Forks in early October. David leaves for Iraq the beginning of November and I don't want to be alone down here for the delivery so I am coming back early.
I am excited and happy. I think David is happy yet upset that he won't be here. I am going to send him lots of pics and record lots of the baby while he is away.
The one thing I have noticed is that my depression is coming back, I don't really know how to deal with it now. I guess I will just have to cope.
I have fallen in love with someone that I haven't even seen. I have prayed for someone I haven't even touched. I have talked to someone I haven't even heard. I am cherishing someone that has become a part of me.