Being a mom

I am falling into the routine of being a mom. I hate the middle of the night feedings and the episodes of crying for no apparent reason... Those two things really stress me out, maybe it's because I can't share those times with David. I love the wide open mouth smiles and the coos, they make my heart melt. I think I've kissed all the hair off the top of his head, haha! Yeah, his hair is thinning. He now weighs a little over eleven pounds. He started eating cereal a couple days ago, I know he's a little young but he always seemed hungry... My baby is a little oinker.
David is getting homesick, I can tell. I think the calls home are getting hard for him. I just wish I could hug him and tell him everything will be OK. He's always so good at making me feel better, I just wish I could reassure him as easily.
I am going to go get David's car on Thursday. I am dreading the ride but looking forward to being in Texas again, even if it's for only one day. I am going to miss Jacob though, it will be the longest time that I've been away from him.
I am still in need of a job. We are barely making keeping our heads above water financially. Hopefully I find work soon.
JUNE JUNE JUNE JUNE.... I just got to keep telling myself it's only 4 1/2 more months and I will be hugging my husband again.
My little oinker is hungry.... again.
Look into your baby's wide, open mouthed smile and all you feel is complete happiness...