I dropped David off at the airport at 6 am this morning. Damn, it was hard to say goodbye. I wanted to break through security and give him one last hug and kiss goodbye. Instead I held Jacob up to the window so they could say goodbye. 7 more months of being alone. I can do it, I've did it once before I can do it again.
The last 2 weeks were great though. I picked David up from the Fargo airport and yeah it was a moment I now wish I had a camera for. I seen him walking towards the car and seriously my heart just about jumped out of my chest. I barely got the break set on the car and I was rushing towards his arms. It was the hug and kiss I had been waiting 7 long months for. Jacob was asleep in the back seat so I took him out so David could meet his son for the first time... Another Kodak moment I don't have. Jacob looked up at his Daddy and then put his head back down on his chest and fell back to sleep. David said, "he's so little". I guess he was expecting a 2 year old?? We drove back to Grand Forks so David could shower and change. We grabbed a bite to eat at the Red Pepper and were off to Warroad. We got to David's parent's house just in time to see all the Gaddie's. They were just about to leave when we pulled in. We spent that night at my parent's house. The next day we came back to Grand Forks. We did a lot of traveling back and forth from Lake of the Woods to Grand Forks. We spent one night at the Seven Clans Casino in TRF. We got the jacuzzi suite. That was a great evening. My parent's stayed down the hall with Jacob. We also got "family" pictures taken. They turned out great. We took lots of walks and watched some movies. I guess you could say we were busy relaxing.
Jacob is almost crawling and is sitting up for the most part by himself. He topples over a lot. He rolls everywhere he wants to go, but he is trying to figure out the crawling thing.
I miss David so much. I can tell Jacob does too. He keeps looking around and I am guessing he is looking for Daddy.
I love that man so much, I couldn't make it without him. These last 2 weeks proved that to me. I can tell all he cares about is his family. This morning we drove to Fargo in almost complete silence, we both just knew how much we loved each other and sitting in silence holding each other's hand was our way of saying that.
When I go to bed tonight I am going to miss having his arms around me and when I wake up in the middle of the night I am going to miss having our body's tangled together with just the right amount of space so we can sleep comfortably. I keep crying but I know that's OK and I know that the sadness will slowly fade as I readjust to life. I CAN do this!!! I HAVE to do this!!! I WILL make it through the next seven months!!!
Dear LORD, Please keep my husband safe during his deployment. Please bring him home safely to his family. Comfort me during my nights ahead and carry me when I feel like I can not do it anymore. Help us feel each others love even though we are far apart. Thank you, LORD, for giving us a beautiful son and for leading me to my hero. Amen
The last 2 weeks were great though. I picked David up from the Fargo airport and yeah it was a moment I now wish I had a camera for. I seen him walking towards the car and seriously my heart just about jumped out of my chest. I barely got the break set on the car and I was rushing towards his arms. It was the hug and kiss I had been waiting 7 long months for. Jacob was asleep in the back seat so I took him out so David could meet his son for the first time... Another Kodak moment I don't have. Jacob looked up at his Daddy and then put his head back down on his chest and fell back to sleep. David said, "he's so little". I guess he was expecting a 2 year old?? We drove back to Grand Forks so David could shower and change. We grabbed a bite to eat at the Red Pepper and were off to Warroad. We got to David's parent's house just in time to see all the Gaddie's. They were just about to leave when we pulled in. We spent that night at my parent's house. The next day we came back to Grand Forks. We did a lot of traveling back and forth from Lake of the Woods to Grand Forks. We spent one night at the Seven Clans Casino in TRF. We got the jacuzzi suite. That was a great evening. My parent's stayed down the hall with Jacob. We also got "family" pictures taken. They turned out great. We took lots of walks and watched some movies. I guess you could say we were busy relaxing.
Jacob is almost crawling and is sitting up for the most part by himself. He topples over a lot. He rolls everywhere he wants to go, but he is trying to figure out the crawling thing.
I miss David so much. I can tell Jacob does too. He keeps looking around and I am guessing he is looking for Daddy.
I love that man so much, I couldn't make it without him. These last 2 weeks proved that to me. I can tell all he cares about is his family. This morning we drove to Fargo in almost complete silence, we both just knew how much we loved each other and sitting in silence holding each other's hand was our way of saying that.
When I go to bed tonight I am going to miss having his arms around me and when I wake up in the middle of the night I am going to miss having our body's tangled together with just the right amount of space so we can sleep comfortably. I keep crying but I know that's OK and I know that the sadness will slowly fade as I readjust to life. I CAN do this!!! I HAVE to do this!!! I WILL make it through the next seven months!!!
Dear LORD, Please keep my husband safe during his deployment. Please bring him home safely to his family. Comfort me during my nights ahead and carry me when I feel like I can not do it anymore. Help us feel each others love even though we are far apart. Thank you, LORD, for giving us a beautiful son and for leading me to my hero. Amen
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Aww.... that's happy but sad at the same time. Brought tears to my eyes.
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