21 years 3 days and 3 hours.

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Lack of Zzz's

Happy belated birthday America!!!
I celebrated the 4th by hanging out and relaxing. I went to Roosevelt's annual flea market. Lots of things I wanted to buy but I didn't have the money to even think about it. My dad bought me a clock for my kitchen. It really goes with the 50's theme I am putting in there. My dad spoils me and I have accepted that. My aunt gave me my grandmother's first diamond ring. It had to be cut from her finger not long before she passed away due to arthiritis inflammation. My aunt had it fixed and gave it to me because she knew it would be something I would cherish. It is small and simple but holds a piece of my grandmother. In 3 days it will be 3 years since I last seen her. I wish I would have gotten more time with her. I am grateful for every second I had with her though.
David got a cell phone so now he seems to be closer to me. He doesn't seem as far now that I can talk to him more often. I just wish I could be there in Texas with him.
In 3 days I will be turning 21!!! I am happy to be spending it with family, I just wish I could end that night next to David.
I got back to Grand Forks at 2 something this morning. I am not too tired right now but I know it will hit me this afternoon.
I have lots of little things to do this week. I will first have to figure out how to make my lack of money last through the week though.
When someone passes they are not gone; for you hold a piece of them in your heart, in your memories.

8 days till I am 21!

It has been forever since I have been on here. David was home for a couple days last weekend. It was really nice to wake up next to someone. I think that is one of the things I miss most. David is now in Fort Hood, TX. He is really enjoying himself down there. I guess I am happy for him it's just that I wish I was down there enjoying this time with him.
My birthday is in like 8 days. I am kinda excited I just wish David was here to enjoy it with me. On a good note, his buddies told me that they are going to make him buy me a gift!
I think it is kind of weird how his friends will just talk to me and they don't even know who I am.
I am going back to Roosevelt tomorrow after work. I am going to go to the annual flea market and stop by Rocky Point and give Cindy her birthday and Christmas gifts. Cindy called me a couple weeks ago and told me she is getting married. I am really happy for her, she will make a really pretty bride.
I went to my neurology appointment today. I am tapering off of the Inderal LA and I have an appointment to see someone about my depression. I guess it will be nice to finally not have "blue" days.
I am alot happier when I am with David, he completes me. I am happy to be with him, I am grateful to be part of his life.
I have decided that a person cannot know another person until they know themself.

Finally a Friday!!!

After what has felt like 13 Mondays and 9 Tuesdays finally it is Friday. I was going to work out today but David called and now it is too late. Oh well, he is worth it. I should be doing some work on the house but I just don't feel like it. Tomorrow I am going to go to garage sales and the art fest.
My gramma and brothers were here all week. It was nice to have company but it is nice to have some peace and quiet. My gramma spoils me too much. Oh well, that's what gramma's are for.
I was going to ask David where he wants to be in 5 years, I want to make sure we are kind of on the same track. I need to stop hounding him on stupid shit, I just have to much time to think lately.
Payday is on Friday and I got to figure out how to make $0 last me 1 week. I have did it before I can do it again.
I am bored and I am starting to think Nessa is just as bored. She just dropped her bone by my feet, what the hell is she thinking?
I wish I had money for clothes and fun stuff. I wouldn't mind being a little more sexier when David gets home finally. I don't need to dress like a slob and eat like a pig...which I currently am. I am sure he will still love me no matter what I do or look like.
Find someone who loves you even at your worst of moments...

Fixing up and selling houses could be my key for $$$.

David called a few times over the weekend. He went out and had fun Friday and Saturday night. He got to hang out at a few strip clubs. I always thought that one of those would be neat to go to, just to say you went. I can not wait till he is home with me, I know it will only be for a few days but I am still excited. I painted the trim in my t.v. room and my hallway. I need to start on the walls this week. I just need to find the time to really get working on it. There is so much I want to do to that old house, if only I had the money. I do want to fix it up and sell it for a profit. I wouldn't mind doing that to a few houses kind of make it into a second job.
I finally got a lawn mower this weekend. I just hope it works, I will have Bobby test it out tonight.
After I moved out and am not dependent on my parents I am starting to see some of their faults, kind of strange how people change once they aren't the center of your universe. I still love them, no one is perfect.
I am my cruelest judge, I need to learn to appreciate myself before others can truely appreciate me.