8 days till I am 21!

It has been forever since I have been on here. David was home for a couple days last weekend. It was really nice to wake up next to someone. I think that is one of the things I miss most. David is now in Fort Hood, TX. He is really enjoying himself down there. I guess I am happy for him it's just that I wish I was down there enjoying this time with him.
My birthday is in like 8 days. I am kinda excited I just wish David was here to enjoy it with me. On a good note, his buddies told me that they are going to make him buy me a gift!
I think it is kind of weird how his friends will just talk to me and they don't even know who I am.
I am going back to Roosevelt tomorrow after work. I am going to go to the annual flea market and stop by Rocky Point and give Cindy her birthday and Christmas gifts. Cindy called me a couple weeks ago and told me she is getting married. I am really happy for her, she will make a really pretty bride.
I went to my neurology appointment today. I am tapering off of the Inderal LA and I have an appointment to see someone about my depression. I guess it will be nice to finally not have "blue" days.
I am alot happier when I am with David, he completes me. I am happy to be with him, I am grateful to be part of his life.
I have decided that a person cannot know another person until they know themself.

Finally a Friday!!!

After what has felt like 13 Mondays and 9 Tuesdays finally it is Friday. I was going to work out today but David called and now it is too late. Oh well, he is worth it. I should be doing some work on the house but I just don't feel like it. Tomorrow I am going to go to garage sales and the art fest.
My gramma and brothers were here all week. It was nice to have company but it is nice to have some peace and quiet. My gramma spoils me too much. Oh well, that's what gramma's are for.
I was going to ask David where he wants to be in 5 years, I want to make sure we are kind of on the same track. I need to stop hounding him on stupid shit, I just have to much time to think lately.
Payday is on Friday and I got to figure out how to make $0 last me 1 week. I have did it before I can do it again.
I am bored and I am starting to think Nessa is just as bored. She just dropped her bone by my feet, what the hell is she thinking?
I wish I had money for clothes and fun stuff. I wouldn't mind being a little more sexier when David gets home finally. I don't need to dress like a slob and eat like a pig...which I currently am. I am sure he will still love me no matter what I do or look like.
Find someone who loves you even at your worst of moments...

Fixing up and selling houses could be my key for $$$.

David called a few times over the weekend. He went out and had fun Friday and Saturday night. He got to hang out at a few strip clubs. I always thought that one of those would be neat to go to, just to say you went. I can not wait till he is home with me, I know it will only be for a few days but I am still excited. I painted the trim in my t.v. room and my hallway. I need to start on the walls this week. I just need to find the time to really get working on it. There is so much I want to do to that old house, if only I had the money. I do want to fix it up and sell it for a profit. I wouldn't mind doing that to a few houses kind of make it into a second job.
I finally got a lawn mower this weekend. I just hope it works, I will have Bobby test it out tonight.
After I moved out and am not dependent on my parents I am starting to see some of their faults, kind of strange how people change once they aren't the center of your universe. I still love them, no one is perfect.
I am my cruelest judge, I need to learn to appreciate myself before others can truely appreciate me.

Time to reflect...

Well I am back from my trip. It wasn't as good as I was hoping for. Some arguments and yelling kinda ruined what could have been a great time. I finally got to see David. Wow he has changed! He looks hot in his uniform. The weather down there is strange, sunny and 90 one moment the next it is 75 and raining. It was hard to leave David at Fort Sill I cried all the way to Oklahoma City. Time and distance really made our love for each other stronger. I could have just stared at him forever. Even though there was arguing I am happy for the time I spent with David.
Well, Nessa has a cousin. She is a tiny kitten named Reece Oliveah. Yeah our pets have really cute human names. Too bad my future children will be named after my pets.
In only a few months David wil be across the world fighting for the USA. I wonder if he has thought about the fact that he might have to give his life for America? I guess it is just starting to hit me...I don't know how I feel about that.
Seeing the Oklahoma City bombing memorial really made an impact on me. Being there put a knot in my stomach and I could feel the lose the victim's families must have felt. How could someone kill 19 innocent children, those children had nothing to do with the government.
I really connected with my cousin Stephanie on the trip. I think we have become alot closer than we were. If you ever read this Steph...Love ya!
Time to clean some house. Time to reflect on where my life is going.
"Today is a gift that is why it is called, the present..."

5 days and counting!

The work day is almost done. This morning and I still feel it a little right now, is this feeling that something bad is going to happen. I guess I will have to take whatever comes and be thankful that it was just a false alarm if nothing happens. People should always listen to their feelings and never dismiss them as "worrying over nothing".
Last night I was watching Law and Order SVU with my sister and the show was on organ donation and the black market. I just want to encourage everyone to let their family know their wishes on organ donation, and please consider checking the little box on your license authorizing organ donation. You can help save lives by doing so.
Tonight I have to clean the house and go pick out an outfit to wear for David's graduation. I am so cheap I don't wanna buy one but I don't have any nice clothes to wear. Nicole offered to borrow me a dress I will have to check it out this weekend. If David ever reads this he is going to be thinking, "why did she make such a big deal out of my graduation?" I guess I will just have to tell him..."Because I love you."
5 days and counting! Then I'm on my way to Oklahoma with a car full of friends.
Don't go to bed full of worries drop them off with God.