Spleen issues

I am starving! I eat way too much but food tastes really good.
My gramma was put in the hospital on Sunday evening for a grade 3 tear in her spleen. She doesn't know how it happened but she is doing pretty good. I think she will live forever. Due to her being in the hospital my mom, Myra, Wanda, and Ronnie are all down here.
Over the weekend I went to Hannah and RaeAnna's birthday party. It was nice to play with them and see Terrina and Steph and Sheena. I was thrown in the wading pool by Andy (Terrina's boyfriend). I got soaked so I had to wear Sheena's old clothes. I was shocked I actually fit in to her old clothing. Sheena and Hannah decided to come spend a week at my house. Sheena and I talked the whole way to Grand Forks. It was nice to have a good conversation with her. I can't believe how much she is showing! Her belly is really cute. I wish I had a baby. Oh well I am sure I will soon enough.
I went to see a "couselor" today because I was started on Lexapro and my doctor thought I should go see one. I did alot of talking and kind of know where I need to go and things. She told me to read a book and maybe see her back sometime. I think after I read the book and try a couple of things she mentioned then I will make an appointment to see her again.
David and I are finally talking more seriously about marriage. It makes me happy to just think about it. I just wish we had a date.
David and I had a little argument the other night but we talked through it. Now that he has a cell phone our communication is much nicer.
I had my yearly review yesterday and I have the second half of it on the 12th of August. I better get a raise. I think if it sounds like I am not getting one then I will need to demand a raise. I can hear David's voice in my head telling me I am just saying that and I won't actually do that. I think I will because I really need the money.
I haven't actually worked in so long I don't know if I am going to know how to when I need to.
Mmmm, I just spotted a pizza delivery man I think I should go jump him.
Act like a child tonight and you will discover pure happiness.

Random thoughts flowing from my ass

I did absolutly nothing over the weekend. I wasted the last two days of my life on eating and watching tv. I was going to turn that around and get up early to work out but my bed was just too nice and I couldn't get my lazy ass out.
I want to get my house finished so I have the possiblity to move to Texas some time. I really don't think I would mind it down there. I tried talking to David about marriage kind of stuff last night and he wasn't in the mood to do so. I think all he wants to do is sign some papers so we're married. I am fine with that as long as I know I will have a real wedding when he is out of the army or sometime in the future. I just wish we could talk about it so I don't have to continue to worry about it.
I have a doctor appointment in 30 minutes. I really don't want to go.
I want cereal. It has been a long time since I have had a bowl of cereal. Sounds really good right now.
I watched Mr. and Mrs. Smith on Thursday. That is an awesome movie. I am definantly going to watch it again.
"Two people acting stupid is called love" I think that is very true because when you are in love you do things and say things you would have thought to be stupid before you fell in love with this person.
"Time grabs you by the wrist directs you where to go..." For some reason I have that line running through my head. I wonder why?.
Everyone needs a canine companion...They love you unconditionaly, they listen to all your complaints, and they think you are the best thing in the world when you throw ball to them. How could you not love something that wants to lay next to you in bed all Sunday?

21 years 3 days and 3 hours.

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Lack of Zzz's

Happy belated birthday America!!!
I celebrated the 4th by hanging out and relaxing. I went to Roosevelt's annual flea market. Lots of things I wanted to buy but I didn't have the money to even think about it. My dad bought me a clock for my kitchen. It really goes with the 50's theme I am putting in there. My dad spoils me and I have accepted that. My aunt gave me my grandmother's first diamond ring. It had to be cut from her finger not long before she passed away due to arthiritis inflammation. My aunt had it fixed and gave it to me because she knew it would be something I would cherish. It is small and simple but holds a piece of my grandmother. In 3 days it will be 3 years since I last seen her. I wish I would have gotten more time with her. I am grateful for every second I had with her though.
David got a cell phone so now he seems to be closer to me. He doesn't seem as far now that I can talk to him more often. I just wish I could be there in Texas with him.
In 3 days I will be turning 21!!! I am happy to be spending it with family, I just wish I could end that night next to David.
I got back to Grand Forks at 2 something this morning. I am not too tired right now but I know it will hit me this afternoon.
I have lots of little things to do this week. I will first have to figure out how to make my lack of money last through the week though.
When someone passes they are not gone; for you hold a piece of them in your heart, in your memories.

8 days till I am 21!

It has been forever since I have been on here. David was home for a couple days last weekend. It was really nice to wake up next to someone. I think that is one of the things I miss most. David is now in Fort Hood, TX. He is really enjoying himself down there. I guess I am happy for him it's just that I wish I was down there enjoying this time with him.
My birthday is in like 8 days. I am kinda excited I just wish David was here to enjoy it with me. On a good note, his buddies told me that they are going to make him buy me a gift!
I think it is kind of weird how his friends will just talk to me and they don't even know who I am.
I am going back to Roosevelt tomorrow after work. I am going to go to the annual flea market and stop by Rocky Point and give Cindy her birthday and Christmas gifts. Cindy called me a couple weeks ago and told me she is getting married. I am really happy for her, she will make a really pretty bride.
I went to my neurology appointment today. I am tapering off of the Inderal LA and I have an appointment to see someone about my depression. I guess it will be nice to finally not have "blue" days.
I am alot happier when I am with David, he completes me. I am happy to be with him, I am grateful to be part of his life.
I have decided that a person cannot know another person until they know themself.