David's in Iraq... 363 days to go.

Well David is now in Iraq. I spent last week in Texas with him, that was the shortest week of my life. Tuesday we got up at 4 am and drove to Fort Hood. We spent a couple hours just hanging out and I also spent it in complete denial. At about 9 am we went into the gym, reality started to set in. As the minutes ticked by I got more and more emotional, I didn't want to let go of David. During the prayer I lost it and silently sobbed on David's knee. When they told us we had 5 minutes to say good bye we stood up and hugged. I wanted to say something special but at first I couldn't get any words out and then all I could say is "I love you". David kept telling me "it's OK, everything will be all right". Watching him leave that gym was the worst moment of my life. We waved goodbye to each other as he neared the doorway. I got in my car and drove around the block to see the white buses parked behind the building. I sat in my car and watched them drive away, I watched my heart and love drive away from me. I left Fort Hood and Texas in general at that time. I started on my way home. Around 4 pm David called to say they stopped in Maine. We had a quick 3 minute lng conversation and at the end all I could say again was "I love you, I love you" I again wanted to say more but the tears stopped that. I got home from Texas yesterday at around 2:30 pm. I haven't heard from David since that last 3 min. long conversation on Tuesday. I miss him so much and can't describe the pain I feel inside. How in the hell did I make it through his time in basic? Right now I want to crawl in a hole and wait this year out, I know I can't and I know that would make it worse. I am just going to have to keep trudging on, keep myself busy, and focus on making myself happy, taking care of our baby (due in 1 month), and strengthening our relationship. Anyone who has ever been in or is going through this please leave a comment I would love to talk to you. David, if you read this please know I love you and miss you.
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