Little bit of ranting...

Just a little rant...
A wedding is something little girls dream about and as they get older their dreams do not fade they grow. I am a huge dreamer and I have fantasized about my wedding my entire life. I am also a people pleaser and will do anything to prevent someone from being upset, annoyed, or mad. I guess in the case of my wedding the people pleasing syndrome in me won. I doubt I will get my dream wedding. I didn't get the perfect proposal so why a perfect wedding. There goes the one day I have dreamed about.
Yes, I am a military spouse to a deployed soldier. I am the only parent in a house and I am the one who has to deal with all the household crap that comes up. Please when you meet me on the street don't say, "it must be hard" or "I don't know how you do it". It is hard and I don't know how I do it either I just do it, but I don't need to be reminded. If I am out of the house that means I am probably having a good day and why must something be said to bring me down. If someone feels like they have to say something praise me for doing a good job instead or just lend a helping hand as I walk into the post office with loaded arms.
I just had the car washed and it's already dusty again... Can I never win?
Would a simple military discount really harm the businesses in town?... I know for sure GAP, Best Buy, and Target have no military discount. Most other places in the mall have discounts why not GAP. I guess I know to just cross the hall from now on.
I can not keep this house clean. It's just Jacob, Nessa, and I but we can not for the life of us keep this house clean. What am I going to do when David is back?... The house isn't filthy but there is always something I need to pick up or wipe off. Oh well, the people that come and visit me aren't here to judge my house.
Unless you are a mechanic and are going to fix it free of charge I really don't want to know if something might be wrong with my car. Unless you are a carpenter, plumber, or electrician and are going to fix it free of charge I don't want to know if something might be wrong with my house. Until lights on the dash start flashing at me, the car starts smoking, or the car stops running everything is fine. Until the roof starts leaking, the plumbing stops working, or the lights don't turn on everything in the house is just fine the way it is.
"The road goes both ways."... I was going to leave it at that but now I want to emphasize. I make sure to stop by and visit people, hell I try to visit everyone. Why is it when someone travels 3 hours they can't stop in for a quick visit or even call to say they are in town. I would get in my car and drive somewhere to meet them if they didn't want to come to my house. I would walk the few blocks if you gave me a heads up and let me know you are in town. Even though this happens often I still travel the 20 miles usually everyday when I am home on vacation so everyone stays happy.
How can I have two lawn mowers and not be able to mow my lawn?... Because Jacob won't let me and neither lawn mower runs anyways.
Unless I am shopping, when I make a decision I stick with it and follow through. If everyone could do that things would run so smoothly.
Letting someone feel loved and cherished isn't going to hurt anything. Making a person feel good about themselves or the work they are doing isn't going to make them get lazy or expect more from you. This is where "The 5 Love Languages" should be read. Everyone loves gifts and money but to some people thoughtful words and expression mean just as much.
Family is the most important thing in the world. Friends may leave you after a fight but family is always there for you. I have had many fights with my sister but I know at the end of the day when everyone else is to tired or busy to care I can always call her. Just because they are family doesn't mean they will live forever. I have lost some close family members. Maybe that is why I can't understand when someone hates their family or doesn't want to be with them. I respect my grandparents and love them dearly, without my parents I would be lost (sometimes literally), my siblings made me who I am today, my aunts and uncles are more like my parents to me, and my cousins are like my brothers and sisters to me. I love them all and tell them that often.
My husband and I don't talk political. I don't care who you voted for. I don't care if you hate the war. I just want you to support our troops and pray for their safe return home.
I could go on and on because a lot of little things have been annoying me lately. I won't go on though because everyone who reads this is probably already mad at me and I don't want them to hate me.
I am sorry if I offended anyone I wasn't trying to hurt feelings I was just getting some crap out of my head.
... Listen every once in awhile. No advice or personal thoughts. Just listen...